Current location:	my bedroom
Current mood:	drained
Current music:	the rain outside

lest it eat your soul like a malignant growth....STELLA!
the past two weeks have been rough health wise as i have been fighting off a virus that had a hold on my tummy and intestines. two weeks off work; not good. not only does it reflect negatively (i have a DR note but that doesn't really seem too much for some) but i have lost two weeks in my last month of employment. my contract with Transgear is up Oct 19, and i am now out two weeks pay...damn virus! so with unemployment looming in the background i find myself feeling much like a sheep out of pasture. i still want to go to school in the winter (part-time) but am having a hell of a time getting anyone at Laurier to get back to me. oh well; we keep on pluggin' away.

seriously though, i have been employed since i was 14 years old; the idea scares me. i will be unemployed and living at home. well, at least i am not 30, unemployed and living at home....if that ever happens i will kill myself. i know it will only be for a short time, i just so dislike looking for a job, and starting something new. i hate new, i like familiar. new is fun but it requires effort in getting to know people, and i have become perhaps a bit to....how should i say it...lazy, in this field. i always shine through in this regard, even though i am somewhat fearful of meeting new people...surprised?

with my health on the rise i am pleased that it looks as though i will be able to work at least one more week before they cut me loose; as i am fairly certain that i will not be extended this time around. ironic that a gastro-intestinal virus should cripple me in such a way as i have lived with IBS for most of my life...a pity indeed.

fingers crossed mates - let's hope fate is kind to me o're the next few months
adieu